A Mother, Lost

A Mother, Lost

my heart beats

blood tepid pluse swift

so much force tiresome

too much toil and turn

when will it be sufficient

the cursing the yelling

shutting me in the bathroom

falling on the floor i reach

for my branch

what have i done

what gaffe have I permitted into

our lives

A  child within me now

at this instant

at this juncture

 i stand

holding fast to the belief

that all will be sound

holding fast to my conviction

driving in the heart of the way

i look to the babe hidden

soundly in the back seat

I pray that we make it home

in safe hands

where is home

my mentality says here with you

my spirit knows anywhere but with you

I stare at you

i recognize you

I do not

I know that babe

in the back seat

I know now that you

are you

and I'm not stupid

I know now that my trust was wrong

i placed my reliance in you

when it should have been in the Lord